wearing my blue pyjamas and feeling the breeze in my face, i can only relate to the darker side of the sky.
and then i start to think. let my mind wander...
there are many a times when i regret the things i do, the decisions i make, the things i say.
but i cannot turn back time. i can only lament and hope things will tide over.
i tried to recall how we met back then. who approached who? who talked to whom first?
under what condition did we get to know each other?
honestly i don't remember. all i know is, you are a unique being.
the fact that amongst all my other friends, you are in touch with your feminine side, letting your emotions flow.
and i appreciate that you are willing to share your problems with me. though, i hardly share mine with you.
may be, that's where all the problems start. misunderstandings happen when we lack communication. i hardly talked.
for that i apologise.
so we've been friends for several years now. sometimes i am amazed at how we manage to keep up with this fleeting friendship. we talked when we are conveniently in school. we ignore each other when it's the hols. but yet with a phone call and after a movie, we can still talk like things never did change.
and i don't know what else to say. there are so many things i want to ask you. but i do not have the guts to do so.
there are times when you make me fall for you, but then there are also times when you irritate me so much.
as much as i like the fact that you are a snag, i wish you can be more decisive.
but you know what, you made me feel worthy of myself =)
and i'm glad you told me how you feel. i promise i'll be a happier person whenever i'm with you guys. reason why i say your timing is always not right, was because we seem to meet up on days when i'm not in the best of mood. it's coincidence, i swear. i wish things weren't the way they are.
anyway, let bygones be bygones. we have this friendship to keep, and i am holding on to it. the future is not for us to say.
posted by pearlewurly @ 10/14/2005 03:31:00 pm
